I want to give you all the facts and try not to throw any emotions in to the picture but after rewriting the first paragraph a few times I decided that you can have it all. Deal with it. You want to know what is going on – you will know it all.


My daughter’s instincts have been honed the last two years and I have trusted her when she said last week she was going to take Will back to COH. I don’t know what they would have done at home with the way Will’s pain has increasingly gone out of control. Dr Andersen and his team at COH took control immediately and Will was checked back into hospital. Scans showed that the cancer has multiplied beyond expectation and has invaded his heart and lungs too. His one kidney has completely shut down.

They had a terrible night last night with fevers coming and going and Will’s blood pressure going up, sore muscles and constant headache. Eventually the right sleeping and pain meds kicked in and he is comfortable now.

The feelings of hopelessness and anger are my constant companions. My heart and chest is physically aching with despair when I think about Lois, my baby girl, who is this amazing mother that has to go through this horrible heart ache that nothing in the world can help her to endure.

We get the same supportive emails and messages from most of you about prayers and love. Thank you –we appreciate the thoughts. I sometimes think I get it – God and love and cosmic presence. But right now I think it makes no sense. Do you think you can walk in Lois’ shoes for at least the last month and still say your usual prayers?

Randell is with his wife and son right now most probably feeling more hopeless than he ever felt in his life before. But Lois and Will love him and having him there makes them feel stronger and give them more courage to face the beast.

I will join them early next week and Jacques will follow a couple of days later. Dr Andersen thinks we have another few days before it is the end.

Grandma Sally