Day 34 Part 2

Since the last journal update earlier today we have faced a lot of new and unexpected obstacles. William’s nose and mouth is bleeding. No, I don’t just mean some occasional blood, but actual flooding and “scare the crap out of you” amounts of blood. He is now also vomiting blood from what we are assuming is bleeding from the stomached…….. Earlier today the good news was that the stupid catheter came out, well I spoke to soon. Urinating is now an extremely painful feeling for him and my poor little man is in so much pain that he is actually punching walls while trying to pee. Believe me, this SUCKS! He has attempted to pee in every possible sitting and standing position just to relieve some of the excruciating pain….. Nothing seems to work. William is now also on morphine…. We switched him from the pediatric pain killers as they no no longer seem to be working for him. Unfortunately the Morphine does not seem to be working on the pain in the penis Seeing someone you love so much go through so much and feeling absolutely useless and limp with worthlessness is the worst thing! I don’t have words to explain the extreme pain and gut ripping terror that I am experiencing. I hope that you never have to experience this. The obstacles we faced two weeks ago now seem like small little ant hills compared to the giant mountains we are now climbing. I felt so prepared for this round of chemo and now we all have this sickening feeling in our stomachs that maybe we were a little too ignorant going into this second round. ...