Loss for Words

I have Attempted to update the blog more times than I care to count. Each time I sit down and get ready to type, my mind goes blank and the tears start flowing.  What do i say? What do I type? Where do I begin and at what point to I stop?

I guess a good starting point would be to say thank you to everyone! Thank you for the love and the donations that made William's funeral and memorial services possible, the hugs, the phone calls, the cards, the flowers, the food, the emails, the friendship and the prayers.

A special thank you to all of the Pasadena Firefighters. Your love for our son is humbling and inspiring. Thank you for your friendship and continueing kind words.  We also wish to express our enternal gratitude to Don Juvet for not only making William's casket, but devoting so much time, energy, love, and prayer towards our little family.

Its been 25 days since William passed. 25 days since I held his had and kissed his soft little face. I have spend the past 25 days grieving and mourning the physical loss of my lil' man.  I still wake up in the morning expecting to hear the sound of IV pumps and/or cartoons. I still wake up in the middle of the night to check on him. I still find myself walking into his room to see why the house is so quiet. The reality of his absence never gets easier.

For the past two years William and I were each others constant shadow. We were hardly ever apart. We were each other's side kicks, entertainment, singing buddies, encouragement and motivators. He was my navigator on road trips, my helper in the kitchen, my voice of reasoning and often my soothing reality. William was more than just my son, he was purpose, my reason, my explanation, and my future. Now, he is my angel.

I miss my son tremendously. I miss and mourn the loss of his laughter and the giggles that came from deep inside his belly. I miss his wisdom and insight that often surprised and humbled me. I miss the feel of his little arms wrapped tightly around me. I can list a million things that I miss, and I would probably still miss a thousand special things - the bottom line is that I miss my son more than words can ever come close to explaining.

To honor William's memory I have decided to to turn Sir.WilliamsCross into a foundation. I will post more information about this later. Also, on September 29th, the 1 year birthday of William's Bone marrow Transplant,  I will be running my first 1/2 marathon. 

For those that were not able to attend William's service, please click on the link below to view the memorial video.

https://dl.dropbox.com/u/81965543/William%20Klopper%20Memorial%20Service%20Mp4.mp4

William's Eulogy from Loiss and Randell

"Most of us understand hope as wishful thinking, as in "I hope something will happen." This is not what the Bible means by hope. The biblical definition of hope is "confident expectation." Hope is a firm assurance regarding things that are unclear and unknown. Hope is a fundamental component of llife.


Along with faith and love, hope is an enduring virtue of the Christian life. Hope produces joy and peace.
Through the entire journey with William there was never an absence of Hope. Even now, at the end of William's journey our hope is still present. Our hope now is that everyone will remember and honor the memory of our son by finding joy and passion in your lives. Remember and honor our son by facing your troubles and your burdens but don’t allow them to determine your worth or your potential. Honor our son by approaching everything with a smile compassion and kindness.


Our hope is that everyone affected by William’s passing finds their hearts at peace. We openly express our sadness and heartache about William passing at such a young age, and it has been excruciating to experience his physical absence. But it is important for everyone to know that we have an absolute calming peace in our hearts. We are at peace with the young man our son became, the angel he is now, and the hero he will forever be. We are at peace because there is a beautiful knowledge that he is in heaven. We hope that you can all share our peace. We hope you will honor our son. We hope you will celebrate our son's short but very full, memorable, charismatic and impactful life"




Keep on Keepin' on.
Loiss and Randell.
William's proud Mommy and Daddy.